Never like this .

The thought is running round in my mind . Every bad memory , every bad feeling you could ever imagine . This is enough to make me kill myself , but how weird is it that , Im not attempting to slit my wrist or jump off the roof ? I like him . No wait . I love him . Yeah . Its a strong word , but yes . Somehow everything is falling apart . OUr relationship has become a little distant . He hardly texts me anymore . I dont mean , text me every 5 minutes . I mean , to let me know you're okay , if anything interesting had happen or just to say Hi . But no . Not at all . i have to find out what he did to his hair on Facebook . It sucks honestly . It does . It fucking hurts . I can feel the pain striking me every single time I think about it . Maybe Im over reacting . Dont do this to me . Just , Dont .