Vanessa

Hi how are you ? Its been so long since we've talked . We have talked , only exchanging a few words . Though those few words , meant everything to me . How are you ? I hope you've been well . I hope you're in a good condition . I am not sure why I suddenly have an urge to write this since you'll never see this . Lets just be honest . I miss you and everything we used to be . I miss you calling me your spoiled brat . I miss you making sure I was okay . I miss everything about you . Its been hard being without you . Rather like a fish without water . I'm not sure if you really remember at times . I convince myself everyday , saying to myself 'He'll message you later' or 'He's busy so don't pester him' . I've been using those reasons too much , its starting to become a little stale . I wish I could just come out and say everything to you , but I know thats just too much for one person to handle . So I just kept quiet . Its been two months since I first fell in love with you . I still am . Funny how love works . I wish you'd just tell me everything that I need to know . But you wouldn't anyway . So I stopped asking since I know you'd get mad . We haven't fought . I know why . But I won't say . I pray every single day that you're happy and okay , not like me . Slowly withering inside . I'd honestly would give up everything for you . Sounds a little too over-dramatic , but thats what I feel . There were times when I refused to sleep for three days straight cause I was waiting for you , but you didn't send me anything . But its okay . I didn't really mind . If you do find this , if you do read this , don't feel guilty . I love you by choice . I was never forced . Its nothing complicated . I just love you .