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Hi . Its been awhile and things have been pretty rough . Where do I even start ? I've been depressed lately over many things . Firstly , mum being sick and what not . Its scary seeing your loved one sick . Especially when its your mum . I've been controlling my temper and it seems to be working . My temper gives my family a lot of stress . Another thing is when people do not understand my actions . They think I'm being irrational , thoughtless , selfish and so much more . They question . They judge . I have set my ways . My ways now are more better than what they used to be . I dont have any intentions to make someones life miserable or even betray anyone . It hurts especially when your family and closest friends question you and your intentions . I love them and my actions are definitely always for the best . Even if I mess up a little , I just need them to understand that I'm only human as well . Every mistake I make , towards any of them builds heaps of guilt in me . Full of never ending regrets .

Former friends pushing the limits . MY limits . I have moved on . I have forgotten every single bit of those bitter memories . I have forgiven them . So I am very sure I am far away from the past . But they just keep on coming with their harsh comments that are like darts darting at me with sharp ends . Sentences meaning YOU BETRAYER and much more stupid shit . They keep saying they have moved on , then why comment indirectly on my tweets ? Why say that I'm the one who is at fault ? Why say my faults when you dont realize yours ? I have realized my faults . I have and I have sworn not to do it again . I have left you both alone . Its time for you to grow the hell up . Because our time of being young and thoughtless is over . Its not cool . Okay ? Its hard to ignore , but I try anyway . Remember who betrayed who . Remember who left their friend to drown in insults . Remember what you did . If you dont realize it , its fine . Be ignorant . Because I couldnt care less anymore .