Sick of the pain .

Over and over . My mistakes repeat themselves . When I finally feel alright and sure that I had finally done something right , it burns down before me . How many serious heartbreaks have I had this year ? 5 . Yeah . Im absolutely torn up and sad . Im pathetic . Right now , I feel like beating myself up . I feel sad , depressed , angry , useless , worthless , not good enough and anything you could ever think of . I will never be rid of this pain . These scars will never heal . Im so sick of this . I really am .