Hello there , its me again .

Do you remember me ? I used to be part of your life . But then you disappeared and left me alone to figure things out on my own . I felt like Bella from New Moon when Edward left her . It felt like I had lost a part of me . An important part of me . I prayed everyday that you'd come back and one day , you finally did . But just for a little while with no explanation . I was never mad because I knew you have a life to live and who am I to ask . Slowly you started fading away , slipping away from my grasp . Thats when I knew my fairytale was about to end . I wanted to do everything to save it but I didn't know how . I still tried though but I don't think it helped in any way . I wonder , during that time that you were gone , did you find something else ? Something to your liking ? Because I'm still clueless . Its almost a year dear one . Just a little more to a year . If I could , I would go back to it all but I can't . I can only remember , replay all those conversations in my mind on a nonexistant screen . I want to go back to that time . I wish I could . But we all know we can't . So what do I do now ? Nothing feels okay anymore . And I'm feeling as scared as ever .