I'd rather have a broken heart than a broken friendship .

Theres too much stress . Too much for me to handle . My used-to-be-friends are mentally torturing me . I'd rather get kidnapped than go through all this shit . Teachers wanting to tear our kawad team apart . Fuck you teachers who are just so jealous . Where's YOUR team spirit ? I bet it rotted with your ugly soul .

Some of you CLAIM to understand what I'm going through , but you guys dont . You just dont . You think its the same thing you're going through , but its not the same . Its a million times worse . I dont know how to explain , but this mental torture is so painful . I'm tired of running races that are not even mine . My race started a long time ago , but I left it there . Just , there . I dont feel like I can go on . I feel so low , its lower than low . You might think I'm exaggerating but I'm not . Thats only PART of what it actually is . I'm trying to act like I dont care , but then inside , I feel horrible and alone .

I'd rather have my heartbroken than lose my friends . But then , thats whats happening . No one is making it any better . I'm so tired of fighting .