Dream a little dream of me .

Hey guys . Its was a beautiful Saturday here in Shah Alam . I spent most of my day sleeping , because I know that the rest of the week , I wont be able to sleep as much . When I went back to sleep around 3 something , I woke up at 6.42pm shocked . I dreamt that an ex boyfriend of mine , who was STILL mine in the dream , passed on . The feeling was insecure , afraid , lost and everything that shakes every inch of your body . In my dream , I spent my days , sitting behind my house , outside , watching the clouds , hoping to see his face in the sky . My friends were there to sleepover , to keep me company . My brain was empty , I felt so alone even with a house full of my concerned friends . I still can remember the nonexistent feelings I had . My whole world felt alone , yet to crumble . So what does this mean ? Im terrified . I spent an hour in my room , just sitting there promising myself I wont waste this short life . I wont . Because I'll be dying with regret .