Hectic .

Things have been absolutely hectic . Me freaking out about meeting the boyfriend . Me being a bitch . Me screwing up friendships . Me and my stupid words . Azfar and I are fine right now . Building up the feelings slowly . Friendships with my dear girls are kinda rocky . Yeah , You guessed it . My fault . I feel so terrible . I couldnt even sleep last night . Yes , THAT bad . Whats wrong with me ? I have no idea . But definitely , I do not want to lose my main girls . Alya and Amanda . Even though the both of them dislike each other , Its fine . I can manage quite perfectly . I love to both of them . And my mental and emotional system couldnt be stable without them . Thats the truth . I need my friends .