Take a knife , Stick it through your evil heart .

Holidays bore the hell outta me . Especially when all your friends are out of town back in their hometowns . Yes , You guessed it , Its Raya season . Im not complaining . I dont count on my non muslim friends to hang out . I really dont . Its either they are not around , or too busy studying . OR they are just too damn lazy . I cant believe them . OH well . PMR is getting close , And Im not studying that much . I procrastinate too much . Sigh . Im afraid . Apparently , everyone is disappointing me . Yes , EVERYONE . Im sorry . Its the truth . I cant stand it . I dont even feel like talking to my bestfriend anymore . When I need her the most , She is making up excuses to not hang out with me . Okay . I'll accept it . Whats the difference right ? I get it all the time . What am I to do ? I dont want to be mean . But people force me to . Oh well . They asked for it didnt they ? Forget it . They'd never understand . Other friends ? Well , For my moral friends , they dont really get out much . One would be in Melaka , The others busy studying , another forbidden to step out of the house . My muslim friends ? I love them to bits , But sometimes I feel out of place when I realize that Im the only Non muslim and they kinda treat me differently . Yeah . They do . They just dont realize . Sigh .