Its Fucked Up

Im upset . I really am . First Him , Then family problems . Is it too much to ask just for a day of happiness ? Friends , I may laugh and be a bitch for no reason , Im trying so hard not to break down and cry . As if you guys give a shit what Im going through . Im tired . I've lost all hope on everything . Im dead inside . I've lost everything I had hope on . I depended on people , And they let me down . Im trying to be mature and swallow all this . But my body cant take anymore of this . It cant . I CANT . Its too difficult .